God's Time

Before this year, I was so use to planning what I wanted to happen and hoping that it would happen in due time, meaning MY time, but for some reason it never did.  I was dating a guy at one point when he told me, “When you plan, God’s laughs.”  That stuck with me more than he did because I came to realize that all the planning and everything I went through trying to make things happen, God’s time and plans He already had for me wouldn’t allow it.  I can remember when I was younger that I would talk about wanting something so much or planning to do something and it never happened.  I guess I can laugh now because according to God it wasn’t meant to be.  I have had my fair deal of relationships and when I say fair deal I use that term in its lightest form.  I was constantly seeking for something, but always with the wrong guys.  After the age of 23, I wasn’t dating just to be dating.  I was looking to be with someone long term hoping that they wanted the same thing.  Of course, the grass is always greener on the other side, until the season changes and the wind blows.  Then the leaves become discolored, showing the grasses true color, which was either brown or no color at all, the sky wasn’t blue, more grayish, and the sunny days were far from keeping the thunderstorms away.  Little did I know that God was still planning for me, through the sunny and rainy days.  In September 2012, I had reconnected with a childhood sweetheart through the Recommended Friends list on Facebook.  I eagerly hit “request friend” and went on to my News Feed a usual.  Not long after sending the friend request was I greeted by him in my messages.  We talked for a little just catching up on the “hey, how you doings” and “long time no sees.”  He gave me his number yet I was hesitant to call.  I went out of town that weekend and came back home to fulfill another week of duties.  When the following weekend came, after being at my cousin’s house, I thought about hitting him up but again was still hesitant.  ”Girl, go ahead and hit him up,” my cousin said to me.  My only response was, “Okay.”  LOL.  Any who we made plans that night to meet up at the bar, talk and have some drinks.  It was already late leaving my cousin’s house so I was a little nervous since I was going by myself.  I arrived about ten minutes before him thinking all types of things.  Am I going to like him?  Does he look the same as he did when we younger?  Of course he doesn’t fool, we’re GROWN! Okay just calm your nerves.  He finally arrived, greeted me with a hug, and we went inside.  I can’t tell you what we talked about, but we TALKED.  For a good two hours until we got kicked out of the bar because they were closing (that’s what you get when you live in Virginia; bars that close EARLY smh).  Anyway, he walked me to my car, hugged me with a nice tight hug.  I still remember it like it was yesterday and I went home.  He made sure that I made it home and its has been history since!  That was God’s plan.  For us to reconnect after YEARS of not talking or seeing each other and to pick up as if we never had stopped talking.  God continues to bless me, us, since we moved to Florida, moved into our own place, and now are engaged to be married.  Although things didn’t work out with others, even the one who reminded me of the quote, it was all in God’s time and planning. Ya’ll be blessed…